Thursday, January 9, 2014

Begin Again

Grandpa in Winter 2012; photo by Valocrat
It's been a while. Eight months and seventeen days to be exact. My last post, "Mad Men Monday" was April 23, 2013. You won't see it on here because I deleted the entire Mad Men series of posts; they just weren't doing it for me.  That post, however, was made on the last day of my former life.  The next morning I received a text from my mom, telling me that my grandfather was in the hospital. The three weeks that followed were by far the most devastatingly emotional time in my life.  His first diagnosis was a mini stroke, following by the discovery of a stave IV aggressive brain tumor.  Three weeks later he was gone. A man who was part of my every day for over 30 years.  Just gone.  His loss shattered my family.  Everything was different.  Especially me.  Somehow, posting pretty pictures and colorful words on this blog felt like the last thing I wanted to do.  I've been picking up the pieces for months, looking for some semblance of my old self.  Yet, there is a hole in my being that will never be repaired.  I'm trying to learn to live with it.

This is my attempt at version 2.0 of this blog, starting with a new name and look.  My hope is that "The Adventures of Valocrat" will serve as a sort of personal therapy: A reminder to always be creative, to be grateful, and to savor the small yet significant moments in this short (but mostly sweet) life. 


  1. yes! good for you! begin again! so sorry to hear about your grandpa, it was so sad when i lost my grandparents too (all of mine are gone...).

    1. Thanks Krista, life is very hard sometimes. Sounds like you are really doing great. Congrats on the Project Life gig!